sometimes I give up

sometimes it’s just 2pm and I give up on finishing the rest of my tasks for the day.
sometimes I take breaks from projects that sit close to my heart,
it all gets too much.
sometimes I don’t get out of bed until 2pm and not once out of the house.

for someone who believes themself to be happy, this sounds really sad. and for someone who believes to be on the right path, it sounds like they are not.
you don’t need breaks from the life you love or do you?

maybe you inevitably run low on energy sometimes, whether you’re sick, your period is coming or a fight is pulling you down. or is it just me?

I am walking down paths that feel amazing but sometimes there is nothing left to give. sometimes I don’t workout, even though I try to every day. sometimes I don’t write for weeks, not because I don’t sit down but because my words don’t flow.

sometimes I think it would just take a hug, and maybe I should ask to be hugged. but I'm not sure it will fill what runs empty inside.

I haven’t lost the desire to go after what I want, to reach for what I know I want. sometimes it is just not the day, not this hour, not this night.

sometimes I give up and take a deep breath from relief. sometimes I just need my life to not exist for a bit.
but I tend to return eventually.
I tend to return to what I have started.
for that I want to give myself credit.
as someone who is in a sometimes moment right now.

who knows where this life will take me tomorrow, but tonight it will go nowhere. tonight I give up, tonight I will leave to return tomorrow to the journeys I started.

sometimes I just need a break
and remind myself, that I am okay.
that tomorrow will come with new chances and tomorrow might feel kinder.
tomorrow might be gentle with me like today wasn’t
and maybe my little journey away from life will leave me refreshed, alive, ready to be back.

with love x

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